resurfacing.

I thought I already buried those feelings long ago. So why are they coming back to haunt me now?

internet-less.

I had our Globelines phone disconnected last week. Meaning no more phone and DSL for me. I've been using my Globe Tattoo, but I ran out of funds for load so I had to lay low for a while. I'm planning on getting the plan, though.

So.. Updates on my past two days. I'll make this one short, since I have limited internet time.

October 23

Went out with J, then later met up with P and Is. Went to C's place (they celebrated Fiesta). D caught up with us after. Had lotsa fun eating, drinking, talking. J, C, Is and P shared a bottle of tequila. Me and D finished off 2 bottles of wine. I was so red in the face, which became purple a little later. Went home at around past 9 PM. Couldn't stay late, since I had review at 7 the following morning.

October 24

Had review the whole day. Jo, Ja, P, Is and I went to C's for lunch. Ditched my afternoon review, spent the whole time at C's place. Hahaha Then Je came. Played cards, played with Gabby (C's doggy), sang songs. That night, we talked about paranormal stuffs, auras and astral drops. Haha Went home at about 10 or so, Jo and Je came by my place first, since Je borrowed some books.

October 25

That's today! Lol I'm absent from review, though. I'm having one of my worse cramps ever. I get cramps every time, but from time to time there'll be months when it becomes too much to bear. This is one of those times. Analgesics don't work, too. And our pharmacy is out of Buscopan. Sigh.

That'll be all for now. I hope I can get that plan soon. I'm bored to hell without net.

a very bad day.

I slept poorly last night. Woke up several times with my heart pounding, and very much afraid to close my eyes. Of course, that's what I get for reading a medical thriller late at night. It's what I call novel-induced paranoia.

When I woke up again around four, I thought to myself, "thank God I don't have review, meaning I don't have to get up early." So imagine my surprise and irritation when my Dad barged into my room saying, "get up, Rubeus is dead." (FYI, Rubeus is my puppy.)

Isn't he adorable?

For size comparison (you'll know what this is about in a while).

So there I was, still drowsy and shell-shocked. I blurted out, "what did you do to him?!", threw my blanket to the side, scrambled over my bed, and rushed out of the room. I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw he was alive, but so not OK. He was bitten by my other dog, Rixia. Rixia is a Japanese Akita who is very much malambing to people but does not care much to other dogs - especially if they try to eat/drink from her plate. Turned out Rubeus was drinking Rixia's milk, and the latter got mad (typical Rixia reaction) and bit him.

See the difference in size?

I quickly dressed, washed my face, brush my teeth - then we rushed to Dr. T's clinic. Rubeus had 3 puncture bites - 2 at his back, 1 at the side of his neck. I had a feeling that he was gonna be just fine, but still. I was thankful when Doc T finally arrived to check up on him. One hour and 30 minutes and 1,283 pesos later, he's as good as new. Still weak (what do you expect - he was in pain), but just mighty fine.

Around 11, I tried to catch back more Z's. Woke up at around 2 - I missed the Leyte Landing parade. Heard the band as they passed by, though. Ate a late lunch, and then played with Rubeus. Thank God he is just gonna be fine. :)

The Surgeon

Author: Tess Gerritsen

Summary: In her most masterful novel of medical suspense, New York Times bestselling author Tess Gerritsen creates a villain of unforgettable evil--and the one woman who can catch him before he kills again.

He slips into their homes at night and walks silently into bedrooms where women lie sleeping, unaware of the horrors they soon will endure. The precision of the killer's methods suggests he is a deranged man of medicine, propelling the Boston newspapers and the frightened public to name him "The Surgeon."

The cops' only clue rests with another surgeon, the victim of a nearly identical crime. Two years ago, Dr. Catherine Cordell fought back and killed her attacker before he could complete his assault. Now she hides her fears of intimacy behind a cool and elegant exterior and a well-earned reputation as a top trauma surgeon.

Cordell's careful facade is about to crack as this new killer recreates, with chilling accuracy, the details of Cordell's own ordeal. With every new murder he seems to be taunting her, cutting ever closer, from her hospital to her home. Her only comfort comes from Thomas Moore, the detective assigned to the case. But even Moore cannot protect Cordell from a brilliant hunter who somehow understands--and savors--the secret fears of every woman he kills.

Filled with the authentic detail that is the trademark of this doctor turned author . . . and peopled with rich and complex characters--from the ER to the squad room to the city morgue--here is a thriller of unprecedented depth and suspense. Exposing the shocking link between those who kill and cure, punish and protect, The Surgeon is Tess Gerritsen's most exciting accomplishment yet.

Comments: I spent half of the night finishing this book, the other half trying to get some sleep with picturing the killer killing me. This is one terrifying read. It's hard to put down once you start it. This book gave me nightmares last night.

Rating: 4.5/5

is it just me..

..or does Globeline's DSL really suck right now?

My parents are wasting money paying for our monthly telephone+DSL bill when I can't even connect to the internet even if our DSL's running. I had to use the Globe Tattoo I usually use when I'm out. It sucks coz I had to load, and considering my currently tight budget, this does not seat well with me. And at 3.6 mbps, I find it a bit slow compared to the 100 mbps I'm getting from our DSL.

It's a good thing I don't have review tomorrow, because I am going to Globelines and harass whoever is in charge.

On a different note, Who's Line Is It Anyway? never fails to make me laugh. :) I feel better already.

I had a great day today. C dropped by this morning (she thought our review was 8 AM, when in fact it was 1 PM). she didn't want to go home, so she came instead. And continued her sleep here. But then, that's just how we are. We watched The Proposal (it's the 4th time I've watched this movie, and it never fails to make me laugh - I love the ). We played with my dogs. Ate hash browns. Then we went to school to take several exams we missed (that's from being absent so often.. LOL)

Went to Robi after. Saw H. I missed him. It's been so long since we hang out (of course, that's because most of the gang's not here - A's in Manila, and J and K are in Cebu).

C and I played at Tom's World. I got a SpongeBob stuffed toy. First time I won something from.. Uh, I don't know what it's called. That game where you insert a token and move that claw thingy, try to grab a toy and drop it into the chute so you can get it. Whatever. I'm not a fan of SpongeBob, but I was just so happy I got something that I didn't care.

I think I'll just end my blog here. My internet connection is so sucky I have a feeling that if I take more time to make my blog longer and post it a little bit later, then I wouldn't be able to post it at all. I'm also updating my Tumblr site, and it irks me that my tumblarity went down.. Again. Ugh.

So.. Toodles. :)

OMFG.

I saw this on Tumblr and I just couldn't help myself from reposting. I was like, "Oh my effin' God!" when I saw this. Then I fell on my butt laughing.

shopping ♥

My Mom and I are going shopping tomorrow. There's a sale going on at Robinson's. Mom's a sucker for sales (and apparently, so am I). I can't wait.

I love shopping with my Mom. It means i can grab whatever I want.. And when we get to the counter.. *drumrolls* One swipe of her credit card and I'll be the brand new owner of all those stuffs. *evil grin*

The Ugly Truth

Synopsis: The battle of the sexes heats up in Columbia Pictures’ comedy "The Ugly Truth". Abby Richter (Katherine Heigl) is a romantically challenged morning show producer whose search for Mr. Perfect has left her hopelessly single. She's in for a rude awakening when her bosses team her with Mike Chadway (Gerard Butler), a hardcore TV personality who promises to spill the ugly truth on what makes men and women tick.

Rating: 4.5/5

Comments: I only saw this movie's trailer once, and that was about 3 months ago. While I thought the trailer was funny, I never paid it much attention. So I was surprised when this movie turned out to be really humorous. I looooove Gerard Butler. And I liked their lines...

Abby: Men are weak.
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Mike: I just told you I love you and all you heard was psycho.
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Mike: What could be more personal than flicking your bean?

:)

headaches be gone! (please?)

Once again, C, J and I ditched review yesterday. Went to the mall to catch a movie. J and I already watched The Ugly Truth, but C wanted to watch it, and us being good friends, we decided to watch it again with her. This will be the third time I watched it, but it didn't matter. I still find it funny no matter what. And I do adore Gerard Butler, so that's a plus in itself. :)

I didn't go into review today. I've been plague by headaches for as long as I can remember (well, maybe that IS an exaggeration) and nothing seems to help. I've tried different NSAIDs (FYI, those are anti-inflammatory meds), I even got glasses - again. The glasses helped, but only for a while. Another problem is, I love diagnosing diseases (one of the reasons why I'll be studying Medicine next year) - usually I do this to my friends, but at times like this, I can't help but try it on myself. Coupled with my overly active imagination, that is a big no-no. I went from migraines to hemorrhage to meningitis to ruptured brain aneurysms to brain tumors. My imagination just makes it worse. I'm guessing it's migraine, though.

Headache, go away. Go away!!! LOL

72 days to go before Christmas :)

I'm so excited. I've been waiting for Christmas ever since it passed last year. (Yes, that's how weird I am.) So I spent 3 hours decorating our living room.

Granted, it's not much yet because I had to put up hooks along our wall to hold the garlands up, and that took a long time. I did all corners of our living room, but I ran out of plastic flowers so I have to drop by downtown to buy some more (I'm hoping we get dismissed earlier tomorrow). I also put up Christmas trees (yes, trees - 3 of them to be exact). My family is not keen on big tress - you know, the ones that go over 6 feet and have a diameter of at least 4 feet. Our living room doesn't have much space, so we never tried putting up big ones. I used to be jealous of my friends before.. I'd go to their houses and see these towering trees, and I'd think, "I want one like that.. Why don't we have on like that?" But then, I realized that it doesn't matter. Having a tree, big or small, is enough. But still. I felt deprived, so to compensate, I put up 3 trees this year. One for our living room, one for the dining area, and a small one (about 2 feet - I bought this one last year on impulse - hey, it was only 25 pesos!) for our store.

My theme this year is balls. Big balls, small balls. All balls. Our living room tree was covered with balls of all sizes and colors. Even the garlands adorning our living room have balls.. But my Mom made me put bells and angels on it.

I also played Christmas songs while decorating. Even sang at the top of my lungs.

On a different note, I baked macaroons this afternoon.

I love baking macaroons not only because they are so easy to make, but because they remind me of my childhood. Macaroons were the very first thing I baked, alone, way back when I was 10 (my love for cooking and baking started when I was, like, 7, and I discovered the fun of helping my Mom in the kitchen). I remember when I was about 12, my friend Kim would drop by our house and we'd make macaroons together. Feels like yesterday. Anyway, I added cheese to my macaroons. Just because. I placed cubes of cheese in them, just to try something new. And it turned out to be yummy. The salty cheese makes a nice contrast to the macaroon's sweet taste. :)

This has been a great day. Too bad I have review tomorrow. Oh well.

FML makes my day♥

I just love reading FML. It makes be happier knowing I'm not the only one leading a crappy life.

• Today, the 86 year old guy next door told me I needed three things in life to succeed: a cook book, a boyfriend, and a boob job.
• Today, at work, my stomach hurt and I passed gas for relief. Moments later, I discovered that my loose, silent "fart" was actually a wet, sneaky shart. The mess was beyond repair; I had to fake a family emergency and crept out of the office so that my coworkers wouldn't see my obvious crap stain.
• Today, my "future" wife got drunk in front of my parents, who she was meeting for the first time. She called my dad a piece of shit and told my mom she wants to tear her own eyes out.
• Today, I saw my ex-boyfriend at the mall, kissing another man. His partner got up and went to the bathroom, so I went up to my ex. I told him I didn't know he was gay, and he just smiled politely. Then his partner came out and I recognized him as my current boyfriend.
• Today, an extremely attractive woman from FedEx came to deliver my new phone. I was wearing athletic shorts and had an erection. She looked down and laughed.
• Today, I saw a video of me last night, hammered, climbing my wardrobe screaming "I WANT TO GO TO NARNIA" naked.
• Today, I needed new business cards so I went to design and print some. After I designed, I was happy with them and printed off 100 copies. I live at a place called Canal Rocks. I forgot the 'C'. I now have 76 business cards which say 'anal rocks.' I already distributed 24.
• Today, I walked in on my husband in our room completely naked. At first I thought he was waiting for me so we could have sex. He hadn't seen me yet, so I started to undress too to surprise him. Then I saw that he had drawn a face on his penis and he was talking to it.
• Today, I decided I need help, so I confessed to my mother that I'm bulimic. After she looked it up online she started screaming at me for "Wasting food that I'm not paying for."
• Today, I got a paper cut while opening my box of Band-Aids.
• Today, I found out that I puke and then pass out at the sight of blood. I am a 16 year old girl expecting hundreds of periods to come.
• Today, I was very sick and kept throwing up. I took a shower after every time I threw up. While in the shower after I threw up, I had to throw up again, so I got out and ran to the toilet. I slipped on the tile, broke my nose on the floor, and then threw up.
• Today, I was looking in the refrigerator for something to drink. I found a jug of lemonade with a piece of paper on it saying "Mom's Lemonade, Don't Drink!" I was really thirsty, so I ignored it and drank the whole jug. My mom is about to have a colonoscopy and had filled it with laxatives.
• Today, I gave my girlfriend a small stun gun I bought for her. She mentioned how she thought it was ''cute'', though it probably wouldn't help if someone was after her. She then put the tazer to my chest. When I woke up, she told me how it was my fault, for buying it for her.
• Today, my skin was turning black, and I believed I was reacting to a spider bite. I spent 4 hours waiting in an emergency room in the middle of the night, paid a $100 copay, and missed a night with my boyfriend just to have a doctor wipe dye from my brand new black jeans off with alcohol.
• Today, I was sitting at the computer when this really annoying fly kept landing on the keyboard. After a while, I took the bottom of a pen and squished it. Twenty minutes later I absentmindedly started chewing at the bottom of the pen.
• Today, I was working at a shoe store and was helping a dude try on shoes. He looked like trouble and I wanted to finish with him. When he finally picked his shoes, he abruptly stood up and ran out of the store with the shoes on. The cost of them was deducted from my salary. $240.
• Today, when walking to my car I was mugged. Not only did they take my phone, wallet and watch, the extra few minutes taken in my journey meant that when I got to my car, I was given a parking ticket.
• Today, my ex showed up at my door with chocolates and flowers. I've liked him since I was 13, starting dating him when I was 15. He proposed when I was 22. I am now 24, and yesterday was our wedding day. He didn't show.
• Today, I saw the girl I had started dating changed her Facebook relationship status to "In a relationship". Naturally, I changed mine too. The next time I logged on, she had commented, "Really?! Who?!" She was serious.
• Today, I was taking a bubble bath, and had my iPod touch on the side of my bathtub so I could listen to my music. My dog walked up to the side of the tub, looked me in the eye, and nudged my iPod into the water.
• Today, a customer at work became violent and started hitting me and my coworker. Not wanting him to get the shit beat out of us, I used a move that pinned the guy on the ground. The police came and he was arrested. I was then fired for assaulting a customer.

And here's my ultimate favorite:

• Today, my husband and I were having sex, and just as I was about to finish he screamed, "Oh shit! It's 4:15, my strawberries are gonna whither!!!!" and then jumped off me and went to check on his farm on FarmVille. An imaginary farm, on Facebook.

on spending way too much.

I ordered 9 books from Tradeport. As of now, they're still processing my order. I do hope they're all available. It's a whopping 4026.40 pesos (inclusive of shipping). I have to borrow some money from my Mom as I don't have that much money on hand right now (I used up all my allowance buying Alpo dog foods, as my newest puppy won't eat anything else). I need to prepare myself for a lot of begging and groveling; I have a feeling my Mom won't give in that easily, especially since I don't pay her back whenever I borrow moolah from her. Maybe I'll just use her credit card, then I can tell her after I've used it. Hmmmmm.

I went to my dentist this morning. I thought I needed to have a cavity filled (I had it done last summer, but I thought it fell out). Turns out, it was a false alarm after all.

I decided to walk (I like walking, it relaxes me), and on my way home I passed by Montejo. I went in, and stepped out carrying a small package. Seems like I couldn't go in a store without buying anything. Spent 545 pesos in one go. I bought the latest Cosmopolitan, Yummy and Food issues. Also bought Summit Book's My Imaginary Ex, and Yummy's Chicken Recipe Cards. I stopped collecting magazines a long time ago. The only magazines I buy are Cosmo, Yummy and Food.

I told myself I'll start saving for our Davao trip this December (Cha and I opted to take the NMAT there), but I just couldn't resist spending every now and then. So sue me.

in my happy places ♥

I have three happy places. Number one's my room, it's like my private sanctuary. Number two is any bookstore (i.e., National Bookstore, Powerbooks, Book Sale, Fully Booked). A self-confessed bookworm, I'm at my happiest when I'm surrounded by books, even if I could not afford to buy them all. The last is our kitchen. Cooking is my stress reliever, so I cook whenever I can.

I needed an outlet for my pent-up anger so I decided that cooking is the easiest way to do it. I didn't actually cook, since we had leftovers from lunch. I just made fruit salad. And come tomorrow, I'll be baking macaroons. Yum.

We're done with our Psych review (a big thank God, sigh on that one). For someone who's supposed to be an expert in Psych nursing, she is so very NOT therapeutic. I mean, come on. Is it therapeutic to tell your students to "Shut up!"? I mean, she can ask nicely. She can tell us to "please be quiet coz we're rationalizing our answers" and we'll definitely be quiet. Because we are all educated, civilized people who don't need to be told twice.

And her teaching skills suck. Really suck. I mean, she kept forgetting some topic and inserts it somewhere in between another topic whenever she remembers it. Which may not be a bother to other people, but for an obsessive-compulsive freak like me, it's a big problem. I follow a system when I take down notes, and it irks me so much when I can't follow it. Here's an idea Mrs. M: if you're so scatterbrained that you can't get your lectures straight, why not use a Powerpoint?

To make my day worse, they dismissed us at 5:30 PM, which made me late for mass. I arrived at Sacred Heart Parish in time for the homily. I could've gone to Sto. Niño Church, but I find it hard to concentrate there as it is always full of people.

I was so pissed off I decided to have a movie marathon by myself. I have this pile of unwatched DVDs (I kept buying them, but I refrain from watching because of my review) and I started watching them last week during a brief break (in between Med-Surg and Psych). I wasn't able to finish them all, so I continued watching them last night, right after I came home from mass. I watched I Love You, Beth Cooper and The Proposal (I already watched this in the cinema, but it was so hilarious and romantic that I couldn't resist watching it again). And just last week I watched The Ugly Truth (love Gerard Butler!♥), Transformers 1 & 2 (again, I already watched this in the cinema.. Shia and Megan are both hot! LOL), Race to Witch Mountain (The Rock!♥), and GI Joe (watched it for the second time because I am so in love with Channing, and I have this crush on the Baroness. LOL). Uh.. Just to clarify things, I am not gay. LOL I like boys, but I occasionally do admire a beautiful woman. Hahaha

I'm not yet a hundred percent happy, but staying in my happy places helped. And to end my day beautifully, I am availing myself of Tradeport's Fan Sale. I'm such a sucker for books and discounts, and when you combined the two together, I'm a goner. I kept adding things to my cart. I might just have to borrow money from my Mom to pay for all of them. Sheesh.

on boring lectures, ditching classes, and horror movies.

It's our Psych review today. Our reviewer makes Psych sound so boring. God.

My friends and I ditched review yesterday afternoon. Actually, I wasn't going to join them, but they made me. Talk about peer pressure. Sheeesh. LOL. They made me watch The Grudge 3. It's 3, right? Of all the movies, they chose the one that's horror. And to think they all know that I only watch horror movies once a year (or preferably not at all) and I already used up my quota with Drag Me To Hell. I admit, it wasn't that much of a horror movie, but still. Cha paid for it, she even carried my things. Said she was my slave, and that I am her master for a day. Haha!

To those who wondered, I'm not afraid of the movie itself. It's the nightmares that plague me afterward that make me think twice about watching.

Ok, back to yesterday. I was in the movie house, but my attention was focused on the e-book I was reading - Dan' Brown's The Lost Symbol. I was also listening to music through my phone - to drown out the creepy horror music and the shouts of people around me. Turns out I never really needed the headphones. The book was so good, I totally zoned out. Whenever I'm reading something good, I detach from my environment. It's just me and my book. Or e-book. Whatever. So Cha just wasted 80 pesos in an attempt to make me watch a horror movie. Haha!

After the movie, I came home. I had this massive headache that won't leave me alone. I suspect migraine, but I couldn't be sure. And just today, I learned from our lecture that compulsive people have a higher tendency to develop headaches and migraines. So me.

Oh well. Another boring day tomorrow.

starting over.. again.

I can't count the countless times I've changed blogs.. So far, the only blog I was able to maintain for a really long time was my Multiply. Everytime I try to open up a Blogger account, I always lose interest and end up back in Multiply. But now I've made a promise to myself that this will be my new "home". And I hope I'll live up to that promise.

The main reason why I can't hold on to a blog so long is that there'll be times that I'd be so busy that I won't be able to update my blog for a long time. And that'll make me lose interest. And the reason why I keep making new ones is because writing has always been inherent in me, and I just can't imagine my self not writing about my day. I've always been a talkative kind of girl, but I always find it difficult to talk about what I really feel deep down, and writing has been my number one outlet ever since.

So.. There. I think that's enough introduction.